I feel bad for last night, like i was clinging onto the past when i should have let go so long ago :[

I just hope i havent ruined everything.

No mater how hard i try,
no matter how much of a spark i had or the fire that ignited from that shines....
Always have and always will be outshined by a star.

:/

Looking through the old pictures, texts and messages....might not be the best idea.

I should let go...

But theres something inside telling me it would be the biggest mistake i ever made.

dunno what to do :/ x

A passing moment of thought is sometimes all it takes,

A few days ago i was pondering on how a close friend of mine was doing with her ex, like ive been worried about it for a while on and off just hoping that they are now talking and on good terms. And foolishly my head drifted back to the idea of i wonder if they will ever get back together. A moment is all it took for my head to snatch this idea and let it manifest in my head...like i know it ended between me and her when it seemed to be going all so well then out of the blue suddenly she wasnt feeling it at all anymore i dont know what i did wrong. But maybe just possibly i was a mistake for her and that she might of still had feelings hidden away about him. Hes recently broken up with his new gf and i personally dont think he was quite over her either. I mean hes an amazingly awesome guy which i know would treat her well but like i dont know what to feel right now. I really miss her at the moment and it seemed to be going so well but if it wasnt meant to be i guess i need to grow up and accept it.....i dont know if anyone will see this for a while or will at all but i guess this is just me trying to get it out my system as right now i dont know what to do......

Here it goes

First post....
Dunno where to begin but might as well start somewhere. This blog is for the contents of my brain to spill out to form posts. Thats the theory anyway. Right so i dont quite know where this will take me metally but i cant see the harm in trying maybe it will help clear my head.